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If You See It, Can It Really Hold You Back?

Fear is a funny thing, and one that can be crippling for people who cannot see it for what it actually is.

I've been left time to ruminate over where we've been today. With only one week left until the launch of Survive, I find these spare moment in time are precious. The reflection is lovely, too.

What I find most intriguing is the fact that even though I've been through this process of publishing a few times already, old feelings and insecurities continue to pop up. Maybe it's the fact that I am so close to the work and the author, so it holds a bit more meaning, but I can't say for certain.

All I really know is that small things keep popping up for me, our author, and everyone on the team that showcase some amount of fear and self sabotage. We are getting sick, holding strange aches and pains all over our bodies, being unable to focus or function over certain days where every moment seems to count.

While these things aren't necessarily all solely caused by our impending launch, I can most certainly link them to this space of becoming.

We are on the cusp of something big. Not only are we, as a company and team, feeling this, but I think the world is left here waiting. People who have been left without attention for months now are begging to be seen and heard. Things are unfolding in ways that no one can really foresee and it is baffling to almost everyone I speak to.

I'll admit that it's actually had an adverse affect on my own writing. Where I was plugging away at a new book, now its stagnation plagues me. Somehow, I cannot bring myself to open it back up just yet, though.

In positive news, I find that my own awareness of the self sabotage is fortuitous. An enemy who is seen is less of a threat than the enemy who is hidden, after all. By recognizing it, I can better help myself work through it, and in turn, I can better help my team members and author work through it, as well.

One of the scariest things about leaping into authorships is the fact that you know that so much can change with just the simple act of putting your work out there. I believe this is what we are all feeling right now.

The change that we will see will likely be positive, if our feedback and reviews are anything to go by at this point. What we actually have to fear, I'm uncertain, but I think it may just be the change itself.

Even if the familiar is uncomfortable, at least we know it better than we know the unfamiliar.

I've touched on the fear of success and the fear of failure in a previous post, but I would like to reiterate here that even knowing that something may bring in nothing but amazing life changes for you and all of your hopes and dreams come true, it does not mean that it is not scary.

The good news is that I know it always gets easier with time, and success is easier to come by after you first get into it. So, for now, we sit with bated breath waiting on many things. Certainly, it is not ideal to have these feelings coming up with only a week until Survive's release, but I know that it's here for a reason. I am continually reminded that we are only human. I am reminded that these small moments where I get to pause are everything I need in order to notice that life can change in an instant, and we are a few days away from the next big one.

Here's to easing into it.


Survive by Sapphire Geer officially launches on November 13, 2020.

That is one week away and we are so excited to share this story with you!

If you haven't already purchased your copy, you can do so at our shop or at

To show your support for Sapphire as she takes on her new authorship, you can follow her on Facebook or Instagram.

We look forward to taking you on this journey with us that is already several years in the making!


Lexi Mohney is an award-winning, self published author and a book coach living in Ann Arbor, MI. Throughout her writing and coaching career, she's lived by the motto of "six seconds of insane courage," and worked with her own coaches, groups, and support system to see her Big Audacious Dreams come true. Her greatest goal is to help others achieve success of their own. Her first published piece, Carnal Knowledge, won an award at the 7th Annual Bisexual Book Awards in NYC on June 1, 2019. These days, you can find her working with clients or on her own writing (you can't have writer's block on multiple books at once). Contact her through her website or on social media.

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